Wednesday, March 19, 2008
- 8:51 AM
Just when i thought that my life was ok afterall, my dad just have to fuck up my mood. no im not disrespecting him, not my intention to do so.
i am just saying that i feel extremely sad when he starts talking about my weight and making fun of it and HE WONT FUCKING stop. it hurts a lot. i didnt think that anyone close to me could hurt me that bad.
it also makes me think that he is embarassed of my very being. like my sheer existence is a reflection on how he has failed as a parent. he failed to make his daughter pretty as others and all he produced is this fat tub of lard.
i am really hurt and confused. i always wonder if other dad does this to their daughters. do they??
my heart feels like it broke into very tiny pieces. im not exagerating. it really hurts. i cant say it enough to get my point across.
