Tuesday, February 12, 2008
- 3:44 AM
like once in a blue moon i just feel like ranting and theres no wayyy i can blog into the other blogg so here i am. =)
im tired of being fat. and being criticised. and this criticising is always, ALWAYS done unconciously by people around me. fuck. it hurts to even type about it. its like im being treated as a 2nd class citizen. its like i should live off somewhere else till i get thinner. its like im not privileged enough to have what thin people have.its like a fucking HELL. thats what im living in.
and also, i realize HEY im not bad looking lor. as in altho im fat altho im not as pretty as most people but im decent looking and i take care of myself real well. i try to dress up. i try to not look sloppy. i care about my image so much sometimes i forget, GUYS DONT CARE ABOUT FUCKING FAT GIRLS.
and then, theres the attempt to be happy for those people who have found love. i mean COOOME ON. im in a shit-alone state, ur lovey dovey with ur mate and here i am suppose to FEEL for you? hell no.
fuck all this la eh. i feel so down sometimes i forget how happy feels like..
